zem
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I had smoked for 10 years wake n'bake up until 8 1/2 months ago, when i decided i should put an end to my uncontrollable usage. actually the last 2-3 years of heavy smoking were the worst, when i couldn't enjoy it anymore, only smoked to keep me from psychological withdrawal. first i quit for about 20 days then had a few puffs with friends almost weekly, time passed and i started smoking like 3-4 times a week, then stop for a week and so on. my problem comes when i smoke every night for like 2 consecutive weeks, then i will have this anxiety which is the same feeling i had when i first quit, only much milder, like a reminder not to go back there. after that i usually would stop for 10-15days then smoke some again.
i am still trying to find my dosage, and more importantly, stick to it! when i say i want to smoke only on sunday night, i would usually find myself smoking more often. my main concern is the negative effects it has on ME. i am sick of having these vivid nightmares, i consider this to be the worst side effect! also i am sick of nausea the first day after i quit the 2 weeks of smoking. yes this still happens but as i said much milder than when i quit my heavy abuse.
i would like to hear from experienced MODERATE users, how often is it right for you? and were you ever a wake n'bake then moved successfully to occasional? i am most of the time happy with what i have done so far, i mean i can't be called an addict when my average use for the past 9 months would be like 3 days off one day on, and only at late night time when i have no deeds at all. however, i think 9 months is not a short time, and i worry i will remain in this stage forever, maybe never be able to live easy with it and not thinking of smoking every day. i want to develop the new habit of occasional smoking, i don't want to have to abstain forever, since going back to daily is no option for me. i am still trying to find the right frequency of smoking without having negative effects... any thoughts?
i am still trying to find my dosage, and more importantly, stick to it! when i say i want to smoke only on sunday night, i would usually find myself smoking more often. my main concern is the negative effects it has on ME. i am sick of having these vivid nightmares, i consider this to be the worst side effect! also i am sick of nausea the first day after i quit the 2 weeks of smoking. yes this still happens but as i said much milder than when i quit my heavy abuse.
i would like to hear from experienced MODERATE users, how often is it right for you? and were you ever a wake n'bake then moved successfully to occasional? i am most of the time happy with what i have done so far, i mean i can't be called an addict when my average use for the past 9 months would be like 3 days off one day on, and only at late night time when i have no deeds at all. however, i think 9 months is not a short time, and i worry i will remain in this stage forever, maybe never be able to live easy with it and not thinking of smoking every day. i want to develop the new habit of occasional smoking, i don't want to have to abstain forever, since going back to daily is no option for me. i am still trying to find the right frequency of smoking without having negative effects... any thoughts?