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aec131
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I guess my problem is a little strange, whenever I try to explain it to anyone they tell me I'm just too "stressed" or laugh it off. I've smoked 5 times in my entire life because each experience is just as bad as the first.
It always starts with everything looking like it's covered in tv static. I feel completely isolated from everything around me, when i focus on one object everthing else fades away. Sometimes i see things, and only 1/3 of what I say makes any sense. And I usually forget what i'm saying mid sentence, for every single sentence. and I get really, really paranoid, anxious and existential.
i'm sooo jealous of my friends because they ALL love it and it'd be great if I could partake in the festivities, but I end up a mess. We're all going on a beach trip pretty soon and that's all everyone will be doing. Maybe i need to smoke more often, smoke a smaller amount, or maybe I just can't get a good high?
It always starts with everything looking like it's covered in tv static. I feel completely isolated from everything around me, when i focus on one object everthing else fades away. Sometimes i see things, and only 1/3 of what I say makes any sense. And I usually forget what i'm saying mid sentence, for every single sentence. and I get really, really paranoid, anxious and existential.
i'm sooo jealous of my friends because they ALL love it and it'd be great if I could partake in the festivities, but I end up a mess. We're all going on a beach trip pretty soon and that's all everyone will be doing. Maybe i need to smoke more often, smoke a smaller amount, or maybe I just can't get a good high?