- Mar 11, 2006
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Before I turned 16, I just couldn't wait to drive. I remember feeling so "adult" when I turned 18. 21 was a blur (what I remember) When I hit 25, I remember thinking "wow, I'm a quarter of a century!". By the time 30 rolled around I was in my prime I tell you. Hot guys, fast cars and all kinds of crazy shi*t! At 35 I thought Damn! a third of my life is over realistically. Then 36, then 37 and then 38. Now with 39 right around the corner I find myself looking back at all of the time I've wasted not "doing" anything with my life. With two young children at home and 9 year relationship with a "commitment phobic" boyfriend (god I hate that term) who btw is always working out of town. Two years ago we decided i'd stay home with the kids, at the time I thought I was getting into a pretty good gig. NOT!!!!!! I miss my freedom, I miss my friends and I really miss my IROC!! I miss not being able to hop a midnight flight to Vegas just for shi*ts and grins. But the one thing I find myself missing more than anything else is "adult" conversation. Or any conversation really. I love my two boys to death but keeping up with all of their demands and having no one to help pick up the slack is taking its toll on my spirit and my sanity. So I haven't gone away, I'm just having my yearly nervous breakdown. Who knows.....maybe the best is still yet to come. (When did GDG become so boring? **** I'm usually the first one naked into the pool. ) Maybe I just need to get laid. Of course thats what tied me down in the first place. WARNING!!! Emotional Female coming at ya'!